[She laughs, leaning back against the sofa some more.]
I don't know how useful being on the run's going to be when Kal can just listen for our heartbeats. We might just have to sit through these and hope for the best.
I mean, we've both already had some version of the talk before...it can't be any worse than that, right?
It was never really necessary. I've usually gotten by fine without needing to fight.
[For all that he might get injured and/or has died, it wasn't actually in a proper fight most of the time.]
.., And there just wasn't really anyone to ask.
[Judith disappeared long before Fujimaru cared enough to consider it. Wally's returned only recently. He supposes he could've asked Sakon, but he's not sure if he would've enjoyed the idea of Sakon being his teacher—not that it matters now that Sakon's gone, though.]
[The description of that kill leaves Korra breathless, throat tight as she thinks suddenly of the way Wan's blood had felt on her hands as she finally woke from the spell. The feeling of the warm liquid dripping down her skin is hard to forget.
Korra forces her body to relax with minimal success. This is so much more than she would have expected when she first started talking to Steve. Talking is harder when she knows she could technically just continue with her mouth sealed shut. But Steve is putting trust in her by telling her of his own nightmares, and Korra feels as if she should respond in kind.
She kind of sees what he's trying to tell her, though. Five years have passed, and he still has that nightmare. She's barely a year past her own experiences.]
So there isn't really a way to ...get over it. Not the nightmares or anything. Not even if you talk about it?
[Though he hasn't said it, Korra thinks along the same lines that he does. She doesn't want to forget what happened, not when she hurt someone else. She needs to learn from the experience.]
Talking helps - lets you know you aren't alone. And time can dull the memories. But if you're looking to go back to how you were before the trauma-- I'm sorry. I don't think it's possible. All you can do is move forward from here, relearn how to exist in your own skin again. How to trust yourself.
[That smile turns gently encouraging, and he reaches out to cover her hand briefly with his own. He doesn't like touching people, and the last time he touched Korra resulted in a series of shared memories the likes of which they're talking about now, but comforting a friend costs him nothing.]
[He winces lightly at the punch, reaching up with his other hand to rub at it with a frown.]
Not really. Sakon's still gone.
[And there's still a lot on his chest that he doesn't expect to leave anytime soon.
But talking to Korra in general and being reassured that she's still here—even though she could very well disappear the next day—has helped. He hasn't had a lot of good friends in his life, for obvious reasons, and Ken, his one real constant, isn't here. Confiding in people is still something foreign to him.
... Having someone that he trusts enough to talk about this sort of thing with is comforting, really. More so than the actual talking.]
[Korra gives a careless sort of shrug, before sitting up abruptly.]
Actually, speaking of talks, maybe we should talk about the being safe part? [Though bringing this up again is making her squirm a little.]
We had stuff back home to keep the girl from, you know, getting pregnant, but I don't think we're going to find anything like that here. Did you and Kon use magic or something?
[So it had been the attack that convinced Fujimaru he needed the lessons, she decides, reading between the lines. She can understand that. Feeling helpless in Haven is one of the worst feelings to have.
She gives him a crooked smile.]
Sure, I can teach you. If you wanted to learn how to use a weapon, you'll have to find someone else, though. The only one I know how to use is the staff.
I'm fine when it comes to weaponry, as long as it's long-range. I'm a decent shot, and I've still got a lot of ammo left.
[And firearms for said ammo, obviously, between his own creations and the gun he nicked from the prison. It's just when he can't fight at long-range—when he has to actually defend himself, really—that things get troublesome.]
[She says it firmly. Fujimaru's one of the few who knows about Storage, as far as she knows, and that means she can actually say something about this. At least they know they might be able to help the friends they've lost and get them back somehow.]
Just like everyone else stuck in that other place.
[He's not optimistic enough yet to feel assured that they'll rescue everyone from storage, even if they do take down the Yao Corporation. THat said, he has every intention of trying to, for people like Sakon that he knows are in there (and for people he suspects might be, like Ken, because why would they take him but not Ken—?).
If nothing else, though, he supposes he has the comfort of knowing that Sakon presumably is in storage, compared to others like Riruka, where he can only hope that that was her fate rather than permanent death.]
[Times like these, Korra's grateful that she's been absorbing all sorts of new styles from Steve. Styles that will let people like Fujimaru fight without bending.]
I've been learning a lot of hand-to-hand stuff from a friend that I can show you. When do you want to start?
[Wan drifted closer to Korra, circling her lazily for a couple seconds as they closed in on the Sports Complex.]
I know I didn't have to. I wanted to. Connor's birthday got a big to-do and yours didn't and I didn't think that was very fair. You're loved just as much as he is.
[The touch to her hand makes her look up, expression conflicted. She appreciates him being honest--and realistic. That the focus should be moving on rather than going back. It gives her something to think about.
The smile she gives him in return is just as tired.]
I think it's the "trusting yourself" part that I have trouble with sometimes.
We were always too poor to do much, but we always acknowledged it at the very least. When all you can really claim to own is the clothes on your back and your name, knowing your age is kind of important. It's something you can own. And it's also really easy to loose track of time when most of your days are spent just scrapping by - if you're lucky enough to find scraps. Having a reason to track time, using the birthdays of the people around you, gives you a bit of focus.
[He stopped his cloud and hopped off as he reached the doors of the sports center.]
Anyway, what I mean is that you deserve to have your birthday treated as important at least once.
[He reached out to open the door and gestured for her to enter.]
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